And the fog lifts.
Being in that visiting room is like being in another world. Nothing else matters except the feel of his hand on mine. That look in his eyes and the sound of his voice.
And then that gate clangs behind you…the fog lifts…And the weight of the world comes crashing down. The magic of that safe haven is gone. Some days the memories made aren’t enough to keep you strong.
Even after four and a half years of being together and almost two years of marriage…just the thought of him gives me butterflies! ♡
I’m already crying!
Today I get to see my Husband. No one else understands. Thank you for sharing my joy my sisters!
Not looking forward to tomorrow. I just want next week over with already! Please and thank you. Deep breaths.
"People are capable, at any time in their lives, of doing what they dream of."
Awake again when I should be sleeping.
So nervous I think I might throw up. Is it too late to call and say I don’t want to do this. I really don’t want to…I hate going into things unprepared. I don’t like doing anything if I’m not confident I can handle it. This is stupid. I’m stressed out over a one week assignment…why can’t I just be normal and deal.
I’m just not happy.
This job isn’t what they said it would be. It’s only for next week and that’s it. I have tomorrow to be trained and then I’m on my own for next week. The girl training me shouldn’t be training anyone. I’m stressing out and I feel like telling them I just can’t do it. My anxiety is really bothering me. I freak out just thinking about next week. I don’t want to do this. It’s a pointless job that isn’t long term. I’m being thrown in with no real help. I need the money so bad. Fuck. I hate my life right now. And now I can hear my drunken family members leaving the house. Like I need that stress. Awesome. Why must people be so fucking stupid. I just want to run. I want to pack my kid into the car and just leave. I’m miserable. I just want to talk to my husband. I just want to catch a break. Why does it feel like everything is so pointless. I just need something to change. I feel like I’ve made such a mess of my life. I’ve accepted that my life will never be what I thought it would be. But I just wish it was easier to be happy…